12/16/2022
Well folks the time has come.
Monday December 19th I will be full time employed for an oil field company.
By posting this this will expose allot of myself and I hope you can understand how hard if a decision this has been.
Many factors have played into this decision, first and foremost I am financially broke it is not due to my customers it all resides on the mounting depression I have been fighting between my own self image, overwhelming stress of all that is happening, and letting people down ruining their trust and breaking my word to them: there are three ppl that this is referring to.
This last year has been the worst in 22 years, Im unable to function day in day out, I set up goals for myself to accomplish and get sucked in like quick sand to the point of thinking the alternative, I've reached out to many and few have stepped up, started going to group meetings in August, supplemented income with sub contract work and part time gigs along with refocusing some of my attention to more positive means.
I love the small engine work that I have done, I love the customers I've gotten to know however I cannot do it alone, not with what I'm facing.
I'll still help when I can I'll still be around and hopefully God willing one day when I can return full time I will.
To the ones I've let down and sewn distrust, please accept my deepest apologies.
To the ones that have helped me I thank you with all that I have.
Love ya and God bless
